Self Doubt

I don't think I have ever felt like this when it comes to a class, ever. The total lack of confidence, the feeling like a failure all the time.

I second guess my choices and my skills and feel like an idiot right now.

Why? Because for the first time in my nursing school career I am playing catch up to get a passing grade and feel like I may be letting everyone down, because, hey with everything going on, I may end up having to repeat this semester if I can't nail this shit down and get a little help around here.

I wish I didn't have to work for this next month, but alas there are bills to pay and people counting on me.

But if ever there was pressure before, there is a CRAZY amount of pressure now... and it will not be cool to have to tell people I didn't pass.

FML!